Life Sucks and You Want To Die

There's $52.84 in the bank account and $873.26 in bills that are due in a few days. Payday is over a week away.

Ah, the wire.

…but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.

Well I must have a lot of character, or perhaps I don’t and that’s why all this crap that is heaped on my life.

There are times when the wire is a bit less stable than others and it’s difficult to stay afoot. I appreciate what Paul, Peter and the twelve went through but do I really want to be imprisoned? For any reason, including my faith? Not really. I prey I’ll never be put to that test.

Right now I’m not faced with a sword, a beating, death by any means because of being a Christian. I am faced by the turmoil brought on by too many bills and not enough in the bank. How I got here is for another time, what is important is how I deal with the situation now. It’s time to persevere and build some character. It’s time to thank God for my suffering and for the person who I will become because of it.

Father thank you for the trials in my life. Thank you for the obstacles and suffering that I learn from, it opens my eyes to see the sufferings of others and brings me closer to them. I have faith in your promise that you will not give me more than I can handle with you and hope in the knowledge that these times of hardship are short lived and that I will be a better person and son when they have passed. In Jesus name, Amen.

I feel better.